Hi Jare, please accept this as an email. I would write you, but the think is, I need to update *everyone* else too.
Hey to everyone else too! I dont know if ppl miss me on FB, but I thought Id let you know about whats been happenin in the World of Winken.
We live in our new place, which is nearly perfect (if it had toes they would be just barely beneath the water). Easy to clean, great Landlords, great neighbour, cute place, reasonable rent (well, due to a subsidy that is), BUT... There are a millllllion spiders! ICK! If you know me well, you know Ive been aracnaphobic for as long as I can remember. Seriously hate the things. But, with no brothers or husband to squash them, I started to learn to do it on my own. However, there werent that many in my last few places. I see a spider almost daily, usually multiple spiders if I see one. Big, gross, hairy, many varieties. Now, if you know me well, you are shocked that I can even tyoe this all out right now. Yes, proof that I am overcoming that weakness. I catch them in my spider catcher (thanks Ser), show them to Nod so she isnt scared like I was, and we set them free on the living room floor, and swuash them together. *fun* (rolllls eyes)
{Also, I cant hang pictures, thats the only other down}
Anyways, I dont have a job... but my car was fixed for FREE by my dear friend Bee's husband.
THANK HEAVENS> Thanks guys!!!!!
And Im thinking of selling my wedding dress so I can afford a new passport and a trip to Utah/Idaho for the last twoish weeks of summer.
Nod doesnt like her glutten free diet, so Im trying to get better at baking and cooking for her. Poor kid. Im goign to take her to an allergy elimination guy in the fall if D helps pay for it, really hoping that works.
Oh, and the DIVORCE! Its coming :D For REALS this time. The Lawyer said two months from June 1st, but then again we must take into consideration summer holidays, so it could be longer. But anytime after August 1st.
Have any of you gone through the LDS addiction recovery program? Ive been reading the manual and man is it a good way to gain a testimony, EVERYBODY should do it. Anyways, since beginning that, Nod and I have established a great routine, I cook better and clean better and study scriptures better. I also have made bounds of progress on forgiving D. Some days I think Ive completley overcome the trauma of divorce, but then he comes for a visit and I realise Ive got more work to do.
Im getting more and more used to being a single mom. Im starting to enjoy it even. I thinkits a blessing that the divorce took so long, because it forced me to learn a LOT... however, that is NOT my permission for it to take longer! I would like to feel free... and I would like to go out for some Moti Mahal with *someone*... maybe. Hah. Actually, I think I should go on dates with, lots of people, so that I know Im not just settling but really choosing the best one. I have some really great friends right now. There are 3 or so guys in my branch that I wouldnt date (most of them are in serious relationships) but have become brothers to me. We have great conversations about the place of love in a relationship. I think it is the last MOST important thing. As in, its most important, but lastly. They disagree. Perhaps I am simply cynical, because I truley loved D, and Im not sure wether to trust my feelings of love in the future. Good thing I have the spirit to fall backj on, good thing there are answers to prayers. This is what gives me hope and faith, a knowledge that one day I will make the best choice for our family in regards to a new husband. anyways, now Ive been rambling.
Anyways, Ive got to go pay my bills, because Ive got the internet, and Nods asleep. Im sure this was disjointed. My apologies.
