Well, as my Dad says "Life's hard and then you die".
Sooo True... but atleast I get to know that the after-life will be much much better! Life is just full of tough choices right now... choices I DONT want to make... but NOT making a chice, really is a choice in and of itself.
*Bah Humbug*
So, Ive decided to be a little honest with myself, by opening up, and talking about the problem. Well, not all of the problem, that would be unfair to Blink... but some of the story is mine to tell.
You see, I moved out. Yes, little Nod and I left Blink back home and moved in with my parents. That was the first of many hard choices to come. However, when I choose the right, I feel the spirit and feel confident in proceeding. So glad I have my testimony to cling to. My saviour to hold onto. Without the spirit, I would be so lost right now.
Because I love him! I really do! I feel like nobody vcan really relate to my situation, all the seperated and divorced ppl i know hate their "ex's". I LOVE him. I wish I could be happy with him, but Im afraid there are just too many deal-breakers that have been broken. too much sadness.
gah... well thats all for now. I cant really stand to talk about it. So, feel free to send me worried msgs, btu be aware, I wont answer. This is as much truth as I have for the world now.
>_<
Saturday, March 20, 2010
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Thursday, February 18, 2010
Phew*
Baby is down for a nap, family is out... time to take a breath and write a blog.
*srsly*
Life has been CRAZY latley...
what probably makes it crazier is the additional 6 ppl! Im staying with my parents right now... and let me tell you, it sure feels squishy compared to my place! you'd think I'd be used to it.. after all when I was growing up there was TEN ppl running around this place... but I guess I got to love the quiet life really fast!
It's Tough to get Nod to sleep with 6 new voices bickering and singing, 12 new feet bouncing and stomping, and 60 new fingers to squish, tickle, and pinch her! She is loving all the attention... but it's all consuming! Now she wants to be tickled and played with at nap time! AND she is changing everyday!
This week she ...
1.) found her toes,
2.) learned to laugh when others laugh at her,
3.) began to love toys (she never cared for them before)
4.) learned to sleep unswadled (this was necessary as I dont swaddle as good as Daddy)
5.) began to put EVERYTHING (including her soother) in her mouth
I though she put everything in her mouth before... but I was SO mistaken! I had to lay her on the bathroom floor one day (on a clean blankie of course)... and it so fun to watch her try and shove the plastic stool in her mouth. seriously, this thing is about as big as she is! It was quite the process. First she had to roll onto her side so she could reach the stool. then she inched it towards her ever so slowly. Once it was beside her she had to figure out which part would best fit in her mouth. so she picked it up with ONE hand... and tried all sorts of different angles, until she realised that the leg would fit best. At this point I had to take the stool away... poor girl... so much work for nothing!
oh dear... through the drone of the monitor there is the faint noise of a babe, squirming, and whining, and waiting to be freed...
catch ya later... Duty Calls
*srsly*
Life has been CRAZY latley...
what probably makes it crazier is the additional 6 ppl! Im staying with my parents right now... and let me tell you, it sure feels squishy compared to my place! you'd think I'd be used to it.. after all when I was growing up there was TEN ppl running around this place... but I guess I got to love the quiet life really fast!
It's Tough to get Nod to sleep with 6 new voices bickering and singing, 12 new feet bouncing and stomping, and 60 new fingers to squish, tickle, and pinch her! She is loving all the attention... but it's all consuming! Now she wants to be tickled and played with at nap time! AND she is changing everyday!
This week she ...
1.) found her toes,
2.) learned to laugh when others laugh at her,
3.) began to love toys (she never cared for them before)
4.) learned to sleep unswadled (this was necessary as I dont swaddle as good as Daddy)
5.) began to put EVERYTHING (including her soother) in her mouth
I though she put everything in her mouth before... but I was SO mistaken! I had to lay her on the bathroom floor one day (on a clean blankie of course)... and it so fun to watch her try and shove the plastic stool in her mouth. seriously, this thing is about as big as she is! It was quite the process. First she had to roll onto her side so she could reach the stool. then she inched it towards her ever so slowly. Once it was beside her she had to figure out which part would best fit in her mouth. so she picked it up with ONE hand... and tried all sorts of different angles, until she realised that the leg would fit best. At this point I had to take the stool away... poor girl... so much work for nothing!
oh dear... through the drone of the monitor there is the faint noise of a babe, squirming, and whining, and waiting to be freed...
catch ya later... Duty Calls
Saturday, January 30, 2010
Flowers for Sale!!!
I made some SUPER cute flower bows tonight! I had so much fun and Im excited to sell them... These are both the new and old flowers
Flowers P-W are $5
Flowers A-O are $3
Specialty Flowers are $10
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Another Video of little Nod
here you are... this was at 2.5 months but I just got around to editing it... Im actually hoping to improve my video skills, make a demo reel, and do baby video shoots under a new division in our company... simply because i *love* doing them!!!
there will be some more recent videos up soon too
and on a side note I think it would be SO cool to decorate nods room after the fisherman three story!! hmmm... ideas?
2.5 months from winkenwrites on Vimeo.
there will be some more recent videos up soon too
and on a side note I think it would be SO cool to decorate nods room after the fisherman three story!! hmmm... ideas?
2.5 months from winkenwrites on Vimeo.
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
5 reasons why my parents are AWESOME!
Really, I am unbelievably lucky.
1.) My mom and Dad always loved each other no matter what conflicts came between them, it was obvious that in the end, they cared about each other.
2.) I have had the privilege of seeing both my parents follow the teachings of our church and enjoy doing so. There was never a question in my mind about what was the right thing to do.
3.) I was able to see my dad teach and consequently I fell in love with learning.
4.) I saw my parents pray daily and receive personal inspiration frequently. I was able to learn to trust my own spiritual experiences as I watched them follow the spirit in their lives.
5.) Watching them live what they believe has shaped me to who I am, and the strong testimony I have. Thank you for helping me develop this!!!
Recently I have watched as my friends and family strugglewith their testimonies. It seems that everyone around me is taking a beating from the adversary. I feel blessed that during this difficult time I have not been plagued with doubt. I know as sure as I ever knew, that God lives, that he loves me, and that I am his daughter. I know that Joseph Smith was a true prophet of God in this dispensation, and that there continues to be prophets on the earth today. I have come to know that as I live what I believe I can impact my family the same way my parents lives impacted me. I hope that one day my family will be able to be sealed in the Holy Temple as an eternal family, so we can be together beyond this life.
(if you want to know more about these beliefs feel free to msg me, or go to www.mormon.org)
1.) My mom and Dad always loved each other no matter what conflicts came between them, it was obvious that in the end, they cared about each other.
2.) I have had the privilege of seeing both my parents follow the teachings of our church and enjoy doing so. There was never a question in my mind about what was the right thing to do.
3.) I was able to see my dad teach and consequently I fell in love with learning.
4.) I saw my parents pray daily and receive personal inspiration frequently. I was able to learn to trust my own spiritual experiences as I watched them follow the spirit in their lives.
5.) Watching them live what they believe has shaped me to who I am, and the strong testimony I have. Thank you for helping me develop this!!!
Recently I have watched as my friends and family strugglewith their testimonies. It seems that everyone around me is taking a beating from the adversary. I feel blessed that during this difficult time I have not been plagued with doubt. I know as sure as I ever knew, that God lives, that he loves me, and that I am his daughter. I know that Joseph Smith was a true prophet of God in this dispensation, and that there continues to be prophets on the earth today. I have come to know that as I live what I believe I can impact my family the same way my parents lives impacted me. I hope that one day my family will be able to be sealed in the Holy Temple as an eternal family, so we can be together beyond this life.
(if you want to know more about these beliefs feel free to msg me, or go to www.mormon.org)
Friday, December 11, 2009
Christmas Presents and Crafts!!
Life has been stressful lately... to say the least. So I relaxed today and just had FUN! I wrapped some of Blink's Christmas presents, and then I began working on some crafts. With the money from Nod's baby shower last month I purchased a glue gun, and started to make some fun little flowers for her. My Best Friend had a baby girl yesterday (WOOOOT) so I made some more flower clips today for her and my nieces (christmas presents... shh dont tell)! I took some pictures of the ones I made today.. and I liked making them sooo much that Im thinking of making them in bulk and selling them...
ENJOY
Purple, blue and pink with sparkle center
Green and pink with sparle
blue and pink with sparkle
purple and white with purple polka dot center
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