Single Momyhood= Leprocy??

Today I realized how grateful I am to be in this great little town! I really complained about this place all the time when I was in High School, but I'm starting to love it! Well, back in High School I was *eh em* less than popular, so I guess I had more to complain about back then. Now that I'm away from, you know, the kids spitting on me in the halls and kicking me in the shins, I'm loving My Town!

People at church, they don't care that I wasn't popular in High School, and even better, they don't seem to care that I'm a single mom!! I have both new and old friends at church. I go to a playgroup every week with a bunch of other young moms, and I also have the privilege of reconnecting with the families that have been here for a long time, and have pretty much helped raise me! They all have great advice for me in my situation, and are loving and supportive always.... so to them... a big THANKYOU :D

Now, Let me complain a bit

I have been going to institute in the "city"... and seriously, the kids there treat me like a leper! Yes, I brought lil Nod, so they all know I'm a mom... but that's really all they know. Nobody has bothered to ask, and I know its an awkward conversation, but its better than them thinking all sorts of other things about me! Last week, EVERYONE was invited to ice cream, ... oh but not me! They didn't even look at me! Not even the kids I know! I went to Edmonton last weekend, and even strangers there (in YSA) were kind and open to me! Gah! Lets beat up 4th branch ok? Hahaha.

Ok, Im donte complaining. Im going out of my way to say hi more and more often, and maybe one day they won look at me like Im diseased.

And Just for fun, Here's a pic of Nod's new little Teethers! They are bigger now (a couple weeks later)... but here they are just budding!

So, I was in the big city this weekend, and whilst there I went to a church activity where I found I knew TONS of people. While talking with one particular guy, well, *eh em*... just read the following script.

Guy "Enjoy your drive. Its a pretty nice drive, I actually enjoy the drive from Edmonton to Red Deer a lot more than from Red Deer to Calgary"

Me (in my head  I was thinking that I had never noticed much... but out loud I said) "yeah, I guess there is a lot more dead things when you are further south"

Guy "dead things?"

Me (not yet realizing that what I said was incredibly dumb) "yeah like yellow grass and such"

Guy "dead things" (obviously he knew that i hadn't caught on to my own humour yet)

Me (du'uh... so I try to make light of my stupidity) "haha yeah when Im driving you better watch out, I get every little rabbit that runs past that highway!"

When I told my mom, she was KILLING herself laughing... so I thought I'd share a good laugh with everyone today.

Enjoy!!

Blinkety Blank Bleep*

Well, as my Dad says "Life's hard and then you die".

Sooo True... but atleast I get to know that the after-life will be much much better!  Life is just full of tough choices right now... choices I DONT want to make... but NOT making a chice, really is a choice in and of itself.

*Bah Humbug*

So, Ive decided to be a little honest with myself, by opening up, and talking about the problem. Well, not all of the problem, that would be unfair to Blink... but some of the story is mine to tell.

You see, I moved out. Yes, little Nod and I left Blink back home and moved in with my parents. That was the first of many hard choices to come. However, when I choose the right, I feel the spirit and feel confident in proceeding. So glad I have my testimony to cling to. My saviour to hold onto. Without the spirit, I would be so lost right now.

Because I love him! I really do! I feel like nobody vcan really relate to my situation, all the seperated and divorced ppl i know hate their "ex's". I LOVE him. I wish I could be happy with him, but Im afraid there are just too many deal-breakers that have been broken. too much sadness.

gah... well thats all for now. I cant really stand to talk about it. So, feel free to send me worried msgs, btu be aware, I wont answer. This is as much truth as I have for the world now.

>_<

Video of Nod... 4 months

4 Months Part 1 from winkenwrites on Vimeo.

Phew*

Baby is down for a nap, family is out... time to take a breath and write a blog.
*srsly*

Life has been CRAZY latley...

what probably makes it crazier is the additional 6 ppl! Im staying with my parents right now... and let me tell you, it sure feels squishy compared to my place! you'd think I'd be used to it.. after all when I was growing up there was TEN ppl running around this place... but I guess I got to love the quiet life really fast!

It's Tough to get Nod to sleep with 6 new voices bickering and singing, 12 new feet bouncing and stomping, and 60 new fingers to squish, tickle, and pinch her! She is loving all the attention... but it's all consuming! Now she wants to be tickled and played with at nap time! AND she is changing everyday!

This week she ...
1.) found her toes,
2.) learned to laugh when others laugh at her,
3.) began to love toys (she never cared for them before)
4.) learned to sleep unswadled (this was necessary as I dont swaddle as good as Daddy)
5.) began to put EVERYTHING (including her soother) in her mouth

I though she put everything in her mouth before... but I was SO mistaken! I had to lay her on the bathroom floor one day (on a clean blankie of course)... and it so fun to watch her try and shove the plastic stool in her mouth. seriously, this thing is about as big as she is! It was quite the process. First she had to roll onto her side so she could reach the stool. then she inched it towards her ever so slowly. Once it was beside her she had to figure out which part would best fit in her mouth. so she picked it up with ONE hand... and tried all sorts of different angles, until she realised that the leg would fit best. At this point I had to take the stool away... poor girl... so much work for nothing!

oh dear... through the drone of the monitor there is the faint noise of a babe, squirming, and whining, and waiting to be freed...

catch ya later... Duty Calls

Flowers for Sale!!!

I made some SUPER cute flower bows tonight! I had so much fun and Im excited to sell them... These are both the new and old flowers

                     Flowers A-O are $3

Flowers P-W are $5

 

Specialty Flowers are $10

Another Video of little Nod

here you are... this was at 2.5 months but I just got around to editing it... Im actually hoping to improve my video skills, make a demo reel, and do baby video shoots under a new division in our company... simply because i *love* doing them!!!

there will be some more recent videos up soon too

and on a side note I think it would be SO cool to decorate nods room after the fisherman three story!! hmmm... ideas?





2.5 months from winkenwrites on Vimeo.